I’m such a hermit.

Agoraphobic tendancies.

I’m not a misanthrope. I’m not grumpy or unsociable. I like being social. I love making connections, laughing and sharing with people.

Friends and coworkers love me. I was told twice this week that I’m charming. I get invitations to come out to gatherings, parties, bars, etc all the time. Even though I generally turn them all down.

I was invited out to a BBQ tonight and a VIP party for a semi-pro football team tomorrow night. I canceled on the BBQ for no good reason even though I really wanted to see the friend who invited me. I know I’m not going to show at the party tomorrow night, even though it would probably be tons of fun.

What the hell is wrong with me.