My Master’s thesis research proposal is due tomorrow. It’s on oncolytic viruses. That’s also the plot of I Am Legend. Except I used vaccinia and not measles like Emma Thompson.
I feel so inhibited. I can’t express myself here even when no one is listening.
Have to write this thing. It’s good. I just need to finish it and this class will be wrapped up.
Alexisonfire – Watch out! is my best all time motivational album. I’m putting it on.
Fuck it.
I need to break up with ******. After this class is over I just need to do it. It’s going to be horrible and messy and disastrous but I just have to fucking do it.
I don’t know how. I’ve been getting in contact with the few non-****** related friends that I’ve still kept on the fringes in preparation. I’ll need the support. If I want to survive in my new job and finish this degree I need to get my shit together.
I’m not sound right now. I’m not right. Our relationship has changed me negatively. I probably need to meet someone to fix me before it’s too late. I wish I was less selfish. more thoughtful.
I’ve got to be compassionate but resolute.
The Ancient Undergrad 
I think it’s been well over a year since I’ve hit up your site. For some odd reason I thought you stopped blogging and had a new sn because you were no longer the “ancient undergrad”… in fact, I think you may have passed the torch onto me……….Anyway, I was surprised to see that it was updated, quite recently in fact, yet for some reason it never showed up on my list as a new update. I don’t know why, maybe a Xanga glitch? I’m going to read up on your blogs now… well, some of them anyhow.Take it easy
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