I wish the rest of this album was better because this song is such a timeless jewel.

I wrote a couple of private entries unsuccessfully trying to explain away the restlessness I feel here in Boston.

I read some entries from a year ago and marveled at the optimism and lightheartedness that seeped through. As a full time student with a four-night-a-week job, I was working twice as hard but also having twice as much fun. I reveled in living alone at my apartment. I loved having my girlfriend 1000 miles away. I liked sleeping weird ass hours and sleepwalking through campus disheveled, twitchy and secretly happy. Now with a girlfriend zero miles away I feel shackled into an ill-fitting life. I will NOT marry her. Things are going to crack eventually. They have to. She’s tired of waiting. I don’t want to cave in. I’m not going to ask.

The timely entry of A**** into my life is an exquisite twist of tantalization. A woman seemingly dropped into my lap to cause chaos and turmoil in my heart. Intelligence without condescension. Soft and sympathetic voice. Sensitive and thoughtful. Well read and spiritual. An almost unnatural interest in anything I say. Environmentally aware and musically inclined. Large innocent blue eyes and beautiful natural red hair. Mmmm.

I’ve never met her husband. He barely survived birth due to genetic defects. He has all kinds of problems because of his bad genes. I’ll bet that’s why they haven’t had children. I feel evil for even being infatuated with her. But even though I’m not married I’ve been with Merle longer. And I can sense she has the same feelings about me…