I wish I had a better sense of the big picture. Not a global worldview, just more insight and direction in regards to my future. I don’t know what I’m doing here in this house, this city, this country, this relationship.
I wish I had a better sense of the big picture. Not a global worldview, just more insight and direction in regards to my future. I don’t know what I’m doing here in this house, this city, this country, this relationship.
The Ancient Undergrad 
If you have any doubts about it, what’s making you stay?
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Agreed. If you can’t think of tons more positives than negatives, it’s probably not right.
You deserve to be happy.
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hello, did you just tap into my brain? I feel exactly the same way!!!!! what is it with scorpio’s and always feeling like crap…I swear….my bouts of depression are killing me!!! do ya know what I mean?man I’d like to IM you sometimes ‘cos it seems we are similar on some things…be interesting to see how similar!
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I have a lot of unanswered questions in my life but most center around things out of my control. I think things like relationships are something we do have more hold over. You always painted yours in a not so happy light. Like so many people here, I think you’re a wonderful person and you do deserve to be happy.*eyes go wide* Oh no… I’m having Shipper thoughts! NOOOOO! I don’t want to be a Shipper!!!
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oy ve. welcome to my life.
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you _are_ suffering. you _need to be_ running-like-hell-away-from-Merle. so what’s the canadian government’s policy on marijuana growth and use?
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You are too wonderful, young, smart, and attractive to settle for mediocrity. Find the job, grit your teeth and get through it for now, and once you have some measure of independence and can get a place of your own, get the hell out of there. Scrap the relationship first–that’s primary, because it clouds your judgment and sucks your energy from everything else. The rest will fall into place. You know (if you were following my pathetic Xanga posts over the last six weeks or so) how hard it was breaking with H. I mean, it fucking hurts. It always does, even when you know it’s wrong (and I think you know. You do know). But truly, I have never felt better in my life than I do now. It’s a temporary hell, yet the rewards on the other side are so, so good. Easier said than done,. I know. Hang in there, my dear. You’re too good for this shit. Something will break soon.
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you lost me at world
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Complicated issue for you. I know that there is a lot at stake here, things that you need verses things that she wants. You know why you’re there. Success this point is not an option, it is a requirement. You know that Merle is toxic for you, no one needs to tell you anymore. This is the trade off you have chosen, and you feel that there is a responsibilty there as man, and a friend, and lets face it, someone who is grateful to be in Boston legally. I have no real words of wisdom aside from this… in the end it isn’t the things we did do that we regret, it’s the things we never tried to do that leaves with that hole or dissapointment. If you think that you will regret not trying to make a go of this on your own, then sever it… if this is falls into the category of something you are trying, then it is worth persuing. In all honesty, I think for you, there is something there to the second option, simply because you entered the whole dilema knowing that it would be like this.
You do derserve to be happy, that’s a given… is this arrangment on the road to that said happiness?
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Seriously, what are you doing in Boston? Go home!
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well, maybe you need to seek some wisdom…from someone, wise, of course–further detail unavailable at this time…
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I just realized that you’re listening to my band! Is the new cd good? similar to their sophomore release? absolutely sucky?
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