March 14, 2005 12:03am

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It’s now the last 31 days of my 22 year scholastic career. April 15th at 5:00pm, mark it on the calendar, I’m done like dough. Today after I did some frightened progress assessment to see where
I’m at, I’ve decided things actually aren’t that bad. I just passed the halfway point on my thesis and I have nine more days to finish it up. Other assignments and obligations are going ok too. I’m going to make it!

Now that I’m starting to actually believe that I’ll make it through, the relief I’m getting a taste of is heavily tainted with melancholy. It’s stemming from the realization that I’ll finally be moving on. I haven’t been feeling great lately. Another cold, quiet Sunday evening spent mostly alone has amplified the effect. I talked with a friend for a while but it was empty, unfulfilling conversation.

On Saturday, I finished an anime series I’ve been gradually watching over the past few months, Kino’s Travels. I highly recommend it, it was beautiful and introspective, one of my favorites.

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  2. May I CONGRATULATE U!!!!!!
    Are you now consider a Dr. of some sorts?! LOL
    But seriously, it takes time and patience and i’m soo happy for you!!
    I do hope you feel better soon and may your journey continue with great success!!!
    CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!

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  3. “…heavily tainted with melancholy. It’s stemming from the realization that I’ll finally be moving on. I haven’t been feeling great lately. Another cold, quiet Sunday evening spent mostly alone has amplified the effect. I talked with a friend for a while but it was empty, unfulfilling conversation.”
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    I heard a song a long while ago that talked about one woman asking a man if he ever wanted to really be free… and he got really quiet. So quiet in fact that she forgot that she asked the question, when he responded with… I don’t know if I ever wanted to be free as much as I truly wanted to be known. I am afraid that somehow… I will never be really known. I think that somehow we all long for that more than anything.
    I suppose I share your  melencholy mood, and should probably be high in spirits wishing you well with your release into the great world of adventure that surrounds us, but instead I will only say, in the world of duality that you seem to harbor, be proud of this accomplishment, but I hope you find a tent somewhere soon in the middle of the woods to work out the other stuff too.
    Sorry about the novella.

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  4. I wonder what happened to my e-mails that I sent you. Sketchy. I posted my e-mail address so you could send the music download thingy. Ah well.
    Good luck with the thesis! You can do it!!!

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  7. Graduating is tough – and I imagine it’s going to be even harder for you because you’ve been doing school for all of your adult life!! I held on and did a semester of graduate work before I felt comfortable letting go. Enjoy these last few days because you’re gonna be stuck workin for the man for a very very very very long time….
    I finally watched the Bebop movie (I’d watched all of the series but held off on watching the movie). I wasn’t blown away – I wish it would have given the whole series more closure – but I still liked it a lot. Great animation; Spike has got to be one of my favorite characters in anything, ever (though there are glaring similarities to the main character in Trigun). I’ll defnitely try to check out Kino’s Travels – is it hard to find?

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  9. You get an oatmeal cookie.Hahah just kidding! You get only the best cookie ever, one of those giant chocolate chip cookies! Yum yum. Oh and milk too. Not soy milk though. Maybe a shortbread cookie too, except I seem to be the only one who actually likes those. Mmm! Ok I’m getting too hungry…

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