At a University library, have some time before my next class. Was up all night at work. Came from a lecture that ended an hour early since it was the first of the year. Heavily caffeinated. I have a much different personality when I am exhausted and running on artificial energy. Much more brazen and forward. I don’t pay any mind to that little voice that stops me from voicing my opinions forcefully and boldly opening conversations with people I have always wanted to. I don’t make an effort to hide my Xanga page here at the library. The girl beside me took an extra long look at my page before she left, I wonder if she has one or has seen this page. There is something lost in the translation between my stream of consciousness and writing complete coherent sentences here. Especially in the dream like twitchy swaggering state I’m in now.
The Ancient Undergrad 
i too am completely different when on no sleep. like jeckle and hyde…I don’t like people watching me type or read when i’m on the computer. It makes me self-conscious. They may see what’s in my head or something… or see me misspell something which i’ve managed to do a lot lately… i think my dyslexia is getting worse. i’m not really dislexic just keep screwing up the sequence of my letters and numbers… perhaps i am dyslexic? oh well…
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Wow we’re so much alike in that sense! Usually I’m pretty quiet and shy but if I’m tired and just running on caffeine I’m much more forward and friendly than usual. I’m not sure why this happens but maybe there’s a scientific or subconcious reason for it. Maybe it’s just because your body realizes that you need to get things done efficiently because you’re running on low, so it doesn’t worry about formalities or things that would otherwise slow progress. Just a weird guess ^_^
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You’re in school already.. that’s just crazy.
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