Having a hard time getting back into the grind. I tasted relaxation and freedom from constant anxiety over making deadlines and I liked it. I’m going to need a small miracle to get my next assignment in on time (T-minus 8 hours). I am way too wired right now. Well rested and over caffeinated. It was the pizza too, many people don’t realize pizza is actually really low in fat, but loaded with sugar/carbohydrates. It’s like eating candy. I’ve been pacing tonight, can’t seem to slow down and focus. Maybe after writing this I will be able to get into it.

The following is a little bizarre and I am not proud of it. In class today I was in a little bit of a nasty mood (also exhausted). The reason being was that I had embarrassed myself in front of the professor. It wasn’t anything major, I had just dropped off an assignment for the course in the wrong location on Friday, I slid it under the door to the classroom (room 316) instead of at her office (room 361) like I was supposed to. Minor, I know. Still it made me feel stupid because she mentioned it at the start of todays class that she wanted the assignments in her office and not at the classroom and went on to explain that the classroom was used by many classes etc, etc. I knew she was addressing me directly even though she was very diplomatic about it and said “there were a couple assignments under the door when she got there in the morning”. I was doing a slow burn as the lecture started. So, what I have in my notebook is two pages of critical notes observing my professor like she was some sort of novel medical abnormality I was cataloguing for a journal. Really petty, superficial notes like unstylish clothes and grandma glasses, a frizzy puffy mess of hair, frumpy gnome like body, pale unheathly skin, large fleshy belly etc. I think I did this as a way to slip her ego underneath my own and feel better about myself. An ugly, uncharacteristic little exercise. Some of it is good hearted and actually pretty funny though.