2025 me here: Remember Ask a Ninja?! The old link was broken, so I linked it to an active one on Youtube that made me chuckle.

In pajamas on Sunday morning. I have so much to do and feel so slothful. Wasting time with online video.

Sometimes something trivial and ridiculous, like an ask-a-ninja video, triggers existential angst. It was the anti-consumer message embedded in there that snapped me to attention.

http://www.askaninja.com/node/5520

Right now I feel that I should weigh 400 pounds instead having the normal and fit body that I have. I don’t know how to stop gliding through life.

On Halloween night I saw a movie called, “Happy-Go-Lucky”. It is the most Un-Halloween movie made in the history of man. A complete love letter to optimism. The theater was 1/4th full, and it was the late show. I wonder what the common psychological threads between the audience members were. Who goes to see the brightest, happiest movie ever on what is perceived as the darkest night of the year?

Anyway, there was a preview before that movie for a movie version of Richard Yates’, Revolutionary Road. This is a book I read half way through a year or two ago. Leo Dicaprio and Kate Winslet play the married couple. There was one line from the preview that pierced through my critical shell. “A man only gets a few chances in life. It won’t be long until he is sitting around, wondering how he got to be second rate.”

I feel myself falling into that and don’t know how to stop it.

http://www.slashfilm.com/2008/09/21/revolutionary-road-movie-trailer/