So. Merle found my page and read everything.

And chances are she’s read yours too. Well maybe not read, but painstakingly scoured it for comments I’ve left. And she told her friends too.

Believe it or not, she wasn’t that devastated/angry. The resulting fight didn’t even crack our all-time top 10. It was down at about #43 greatest. She was pretty stunned and hurt, but there were no big surprises for her to read. No startling realizations that I hid away from her. The worst was the comment flirting I’ve done with Wonderplum (boy she hates you). But even there she didn’t have a much of a right to cause havoc since she’s been guilty of the same offense in the past.

So I apologized and we moved on. Except now, out of the blue, a couple of times a day she’ll hit me with a question about something I wrote months ago. Things I don’t even remember writing, let alone what I was thinking or going through at the time. And it just stuns me, the amount of new perspective she has.

So I’ve privatized everything and don’t really know where to go from here. I guess I’ll be taking a break for a while. Hopefully everyone will still be here when I figure out how to proceed. I’m not sure if I can continue with her reading, and I’m not going to do things in secret either. It was one thing when she didn’t know about it. It’s another thing if I have to lie about it. sigh.