It’s over. A quiet day I needed. Been reflecting on my relationships with family and friends today. I recieved an unexpected email from my little sister in B.C. who is a real fierce independant artistic type. Much more so than me, who isn’t mainstream (I hope). We have had virtually zero correspondence or conversation over the last 6 years or so, there isn’t any animosity between us, we just are both kind of detached. She complained a little of the distance and expressed a desire to have a better relationship but I think it was half hearted. Still I wrote an appropriately pleaseant and encouraging response. That is the theme of my immediate family, I think we all genuinely love each other greatly but we just have steaks of introvert in us. Now that we are all adults the distance is more marked. The last Christmas we were all together it was pretty weird and awkward. Like four old friends kind of just going through the motions. Enjoying each others company but not really displaying too much emotion. The love is there though. I also enjoyed the well wishing I recieved from friends and colleages today. Many of them relationships that I never seeked out, they just kind of developed. I have always thought of myself as someone who doesn’t mind not having a large circle of friends or a booming social life, but when I stop to think about it, maybe the reason I don’t feel lonely too often is that my social network is better than I know. Today was a good day.
The Ancient Undergrad 
hey, happy birthday. and i was reading through some of your entries, and you get my official seal of awesomeness…
airamericaradio, the simpsons, and adbusters… nice.
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i would gladly show you my pointy feet any day…
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Deep meaningful comment time (not that mine aren’t all deep and meaningful):
My relationship with my brother is kind of like that. The way I describe it: he’s one of my strings. When we are together, we don’t talk at all, but we still have the same vibe. You know, like when you put a tuning fork next to a string that has the same frequency, the string starts vibrating without being plucked.
When I went away to college, I realized that I missed the most important years of my sister’s life so far, and because of that, she’s grown into a different person than the one I remember – running down the stairs in pajamas to fight over the remote for Saturday morning cartoons. It’s a little difficult – having to catch each other up on our lives when before, we simply had to sit back and witness it.
I hope everything’s ok with your sister in B.C. Sometimes people we haven’t heard from in a while make an effort to seek us out for reasons they don’t even know yet.
Much love, Sarah
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Thank you so much for your comment on my site, it was most encouraging đ
It’s strange how often the relationships we truly desire are often the ones we have all around us but didn’t consciously forge. It’s like they just ‘became’, but chances are we’d miss them if they ceased to exist.. đ
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